Monday, July 30, 2012

I'm sitting here in my room at the B&B at Sunset Beach.....and I'm bored....I've learned in the past 24 hours that I don't know how to relax.  It's really a sad thing, but all I can think about is that I'm not really doing anything here that I couldn' do at home, and I'm irritated that I spent the money on this room!  I'm also thinking that if I had  stayed at home, I maybe could have finished my paiting in Lainey's room....but as it stands, I only got the one wall done, which is a little disappointing.  I realize that we have months until we need the room, but when I get going on a project I just want to get it done!!
I got here last night around 4 and pretty much as soon as I got here it started storming really bad so I hung out for a while for it to pass.  After that I did manage to get out and walk down to the beach, which was nice, it was only about 75 degrees and had a great breeze with some huge waves rolling in.  Really was great.  This morning I woke up to cloudy skies and while I was downstairs having breakfast with the old folks it started pouring.  Figured I would take advantage of the cruddy weather and head to the outlet mall in Myrtle.  Holy rain and storming, was crazy!!  I did get a little shopping done before I drove back through the rain.  One nice part of the day is that I sat out on the porch and read a great book for a few hours, there was a deer and some other birds and things out on the waterway outside my porch.  It was really peaceful and quiet. 
We've gotten lots of pictures of the boys while they have been out in Texas with their grandparents.  They look like they are having an amazing time, and I'm not sure they will ever want to come home!  They've been to the natural history museum, the children's museum, in the pool every day, and climbing rock walls!  I can't lie, it does break my heart a little that they don't seem to be missing us at all.  They will probably be bored when they get home!  I am so happy that they are getting to spend this time with them, since they live so far away they don't get to see them so much.
The sun is finally starting to come out, so I may have to wander down to the beach for a walk in a bit.  I think I'm going to go look for some crab legs tonight, pretty sure that will make the whole trip worthwhile!  I'm heading home tomorrow, and I'm sure it will be good to sleep in my own bed, since last night in a strange place did not make for good sleeping!!

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Some Progress!!

We are finally making a little progress with the adoption!!! (baby steps, but steps nonetheless)  We have been having a really hard time even getting in touch with our social worker who is the one writing our home study.  Pretty much nothing moves until the home study is done, so it's a pretty important step in the process.  She's met with us twice, and we've sent her tons of info about us, but then every time I would email, we wouldn't hear anything back forever, if at all so we really had no idea where we were at or what kind of time we were looking at.  From what I know from other people, I had an idea of how long it should take, but not getting an answer from her was pretty frustrating!! 
They made some changes to our case worker (not the social's all hard to keep up with) at the agency so she had emailed to find out where we were in the process and how things were going.  I sent her a message back about our frustrations, and things seemed to move a little faster then...amazing how that happens.  Unfortunately, it took her even days to get in touch with the social worker.  That all being said, I got an email late Friday afternoon that said she was supposed to have the draft of our home study to review on Tuesday of next week!!!!!!  The agency has to review it to make sure that it has everything the Russian government is going to want, and we are still waiting for one more background check (which right now I'm assuming will be okay), and then it can all be sent for approval here in the US.   This is so amazingly exciting!!!!!!  After so long of just kind of waiting, this is a huge step in our process.  I was reading a forum last week that one couple got a referral for a 10 month old girl after just three months of waiting....I know that's not normal, but makes me excited, scared, and nervous that this is all really happening. 
I will try to keep you posted on the progress and where we are at, it's all so exciting!  I'm off to go work on the furniture for her room...seems like it is so much more urgent now!  I know we still have lots of time to wait, and things could still happen, but this just gets me excited like we were when we first started!! 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Holy cow!!!

I knew it had been a while since I had posted anything here, but didn't realize that it was the middle of May!!  All I can say is, Biostats kind of took over my life for about 8 weeks and I barely had time to sleep, let alone blog!  So, in two months, what has's such a blur I can hardly remember!
To start, I'm still pregnant...which is probably not news to anyone.  We did find out that the parents are going to have one boy and one girl, which is pretty exciting.  It's kind of ironic to me since the first time I carried two girls, then two it seems right to have one of each for this last time.  We were all lucky enough to have them here for that ultrasound, and I think that overwhelming is an understatement when they got to see their babies for the first time and hear that they were perfect and healthy.  The look on their faces just tells it all for me and why I love to do this.  I have said it before and I will always believe that I am just as blessed in this journey as the parents are.  It is still incredible to see their faces, and I can't wait for a few more months to go by when I can see them lay eyes on their new children for the first time!!  I also can't wait for a few more months when the weather cools off a little.  100 degrees most days is a little rough even when you aren't pregnant, but when you are it is close to torture!!!
Moving on to the other big journey in our lives...the adoption.  I wish I could say we have made huge progress in this venture.  But, as most people know, this process is painfully slow.  I think (don't know for sure because our social worker is not the best at communication) that our home study should be done this month, which is pretty huge.  This is really the first big step.  Once it's done then we can apply for grants and things, and it gets sent off to be approved by our goverment and then after that's done (which could take 1-4 months) everything can be sent off to Russia.  So, once that is done, I think we will feel a little more like it's real.  Good news is that we have actually been able to raise about half of the money we need, which is really a miracle it seems like.  Once we got there, it really felt like we might actually be able to do this.  Pretty incredible really.  We still have a chunk to raise, but I know that it will work out and come from somewhere!!
We have plans for her room already, the challenge now is finding the time for all of the projects that need to be done to complete that!  I made a huge decision in figuring out what color/design I wanted.  If you have ever been around when I tryto pick a paint color, you know how huge this was for me!  I have started sanding furniture so that we can paint it, but it's also a slow process.  I'm really trying to do everything I can to make her room amazing without spending too much money, and I'm pretty excited with the ideas so far!
So...I wish I had something deep or insightful to write about this time, but I have to be honest...I'm so fried right now with school that my brain can hardly even form sentences at this point!  I should be done with school for the summer in about 3 weeks and will be taking my "me, myelf, and I" vacation at the end of the month, so maybe I will be inspired then!